Monday, November 20
i'll take care of you.
I still remember what Rico said to me about 1 or 2 years ago. He said, "Always expect that it is going to be a horrible day everyday. So that if it turns out to be a good day, then you'll get a bonus. But if it's true that it's a horrible day then you won't be too down because you've already expected it."
I can also remember that I did that for a few months and well, yes it works but it sucks too. It is
appallingly depressing. I wake up feeling like Elizabeth Wurtzel during her down days in Prozac Nation.
Gradually and then suddenly. But these past few months, I realised how much energy it takes to keep expecting that the day is going to be a horrible day. Nowadays, grateful and happy are what I feel when I wake up everyday. Even with the little flaws in life, it feels good. I guess my life doesn't suck that much compared to what I have been through before. This, now, is way better and I have this funny feeling that it will get even better.
I love you, Nicole. ...
Alright, can we play solitaire showdown now? Hehe.
