Monday, April 17
they all laughed at me
"
There she is...", I thought to myself.
I can't walk in a stable manner. My legs were shaking.
Stop shaking, Marina. Just breathe.
She's different or maybe I'm the different one. No, things have changed. So much, too much have changed over the past year. I never thought that the most difficult task today was to actually, hold a piece of paper. It seems heavy. My hand felt weak. It's my bowling hand,
mind you and it's not suppose to be weak.
"
... will be fine ya..", I read to myself.
Relieved. Sad. Disappoint. Calm. Confused. Unsure. I have no idea what I was feeling at that moment. Feelings rushed into me. None of them wanna give way to each other. All wanted to go in and make me feel them. Leave me alone, I thought. I don't wanna feel anything. Numbness seems so appealing now.
"
I don't think it will go back to how you guys were before," Nadhirah said to me.
Stab me. Stab me. Stab me. Stab me. Stab me Stab me. Stab me. Stab me. I chanted.
