Saturday, April 22
people are such ______ creatures
I
don't like my mother and don't tell me that I should like my mother because you don't know
my mother. I don't even know where to begin to list the things that she did. She never tried to get to know me. How can she when she wasn't around when I grew up. Wasn't around as in because right after was born and was out of the hospital, she sent me to a babysitter. Most of my days are with my babysitter whom I called her
"Mak" (mother in malay) too. For
11 years, I was with her. She took care of me as a baby and everything. Those were my happy days.
But then, I grew up. I no longer need to be babysat and there was my mother. Since then, my life became bad and it got from bad to worst and now, horrible. She has never supported me in anyways. She has never sincerely complimented me. She will, without effort, put me down and make me feel so dumb and hurt. She never respect me as a person and I cannot return any respect because I did gave her respect before but it was such a waste.
Because of her, I ran away from home when I was still studying in secondary school and how dare she blamed my friend for my run away. How dare she. My mother, father and I went then sent to a
family counselling. It doesn't help. Like I said, I'm the living proof or rather, my mother is the living proof that counselling doesn't help much. I said much because my father did change his ways. My mother makes me want to pull my hairs and explode my head every
fuckingday.
....
and
you, if you don't already know, I do read what you wrote eventhough it's not for me, I have something to say about it because I was in that position before.
No one can truly say why. even the person herself/himself can't exactly put into words why. That's why people should not ask such questions because you might do that one day and it might be too late to tell the person that you understand how she/he feels. So wait for yourself to be in he/her shoes before questioning because whether you care how she/he feels,
people do get offended.
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It's not that hard to understand, you idiot.
